This Guy Finale~

After that incident
I never saw him
I admit, I missed him
But things won't remain as they used to be

Every time he caught me
gazing at him
He always ends up averting his eyes
As if his denying my existence

I wanted to know
What made him change
Is this what they call karma?
if it was, i'm regretting

I wanted to apologize
Not knowing what I did wrong
But for the sake of seeing him smile again
I'll low down this pride

But now I realized
Doing this is useless
So I let him be
No matter how painful it is

I had my happy days
I had my lonely moments
I missed our bonds
But its time to lose the knots

Clinging onto memories
That will end up tears in your eyes
Is stupid, It's better
Not to indulge yourself in painful memories

Giving up was the only option
Both of us were wounded
He hated me for some reason
But i accepted all his insults

Today, the both of us went on our own direction
We never talked, We never smiled at one another
As if nothing happened
Every moment we spend together vanished in thin air

A smile that brightens someone's day #1

It took a while before i knew what my best asset is, I've been asking some of my friends and they gave me different answers, so i was having a hard time identifying what it was, so what I did was i chose the common answer they gave and this is what i got a SMILE. :)

A smile is something that can't be obtained easily because it depends on your emotion, but I am different because I smile neither I'm happy or depressed. This is why I consider this as my best asset.

It doesn't mean when I'm depressed, I'm giving you a fake smile. I smile because I don't want anyone to be affected on my negative emotions. I smile because I don't want to ruin a person's day. I smile for a reason to brighten someone's day. All of us has the ability to smile, we smile because it makes us feel better and Smiling tends to make us more attractive and pleasing to the eyes. Who would like to befriend a person who keeps on frowning? if you asked me I don't want one. Smiling is also a good start to make friends it gives a good impression when you meet new people, because one smile says a lot of positive traits about you.My friends told me when I smile, It makes them feel better because there something about this smile of mine that brings happiness to them, I don't know if what they were saying is true or not but I was really flattered.

Smiling is contagious as what I've experienced, There was this incident when I was feeling down because i got scolded by my parents, I went to school with this huge frown on my face. Everyone looked at me and was kinda curious why I looked so sad, as I entered my classroom my friends approached me and asked why i was feeling so down when I told them what happened, One of my friends told me that everything is gonna be fine and gave me a smile. When I looked at him I burst out laughing and he gave me this "questioned" look on his face, and i told him that he got something stuck on his teeth and everyone around me started laughing and it made me feel better. Smiling is something that happens so fast but remains in your memory for a lifetime.

"Frown and you Frown ALONE, but SMILE and the whole world Smiles." ^_____________________^

Unfair

The feeling of being treated unequally is heartbreaking. I know that someone is better than me but this is already too much, giving her all the responsibilities as if i'm not someone to be trusted. I know that I'm sometimes inadequate to my duties but If only you can understand that I have feelings to, why not give me a chance? and I'll assure that I'll give my best. I won't hold grudges because I'm not that kind of person, It's my fault that I'm like this so why hate? but always consider the fact when your in my situation, it's not that easy to be treated as someone that can't be trusted because you thought that I cannot achieve the duty that your going give to me. Treat me FAIRLY!

To my readers, I want to point this out that comparing and being unfair is not a good thing because it gives an effect to the person whom you treating unfairly and that effect is what we knew as JEALOUSY. Jealousy is envy and when you envy that would turn into hatred that will bring chaos to the world, Just like the story of Cain and Abel, Cain killed his brother because of Jealousy. If you haven't read the bible or not fond on reading it well you can check this link if you want to know the whole story why he killed his brother and what triggered the Jealousy.  http://www.dltk-bible.com/genesis/chapter4-cv1.htm

Public Speaking Enhancement

Toastmasters is a club that's purpose is to help members improve their communication,public speaking and leadership skills.

Yesterday, I was invited by a friend to attend a meeting themed: Looking back at 2010 A fairytale special by the toastmasters. At first I was hesitant to attend the meeting when my friend mentioned that their is going to be an impromptu speaking for the guests who attended the meeting, unfortunately I was informed on the day I was about to attend so there was no time for me to back out. The meeting started 6pm and their were only few people in the room dressed like their in a fantasy world, well not too extravagant costumes but simple ones. Looking around I realize the room was small,that instantly gave me an idea that only few people are going to attend, that made me and my friend nervous because those people might be "experts" in public speaking and this might be a room filled with good English speakers, so talking in front of them would be pretty scary.

So when the program started it all began with greetings,pledges etc., I've learned new vocabulary words, tips on how to stat a impromptu speech and other guidelines that will help create a enthusiastic speech. So I want to share those things I've learned:

Ululate-to howl or wail, in grief or in jubilation
example: The wolves are ululating during a full moon.


Sylvan (adjective)- of forest: relating to, typical of, or found in a forest
example: The fairies are strolling amidst the sylvan.


Gimcrack- showy but shoddily made: showy or superficially appealing, but badly made and worthless
example: The accessories that are sold at the sidewalk is a gimcrack.


We all know that impromptu speaking is important because it affects on a lot of things like job interviews, when we join a beauty pageant, being a politician etc., this is the reason why we should practice our universal language and the way we pronounce the words, but what if we are already good at this verbal stuff? but the only problem is we don't know how to start a speech or we don't know what words to say, It's simple all we have to do is to remember the abbreviation PREP and PREM.

PREP which stands for:
P- Proposition
R- Reason
E-Example
P- Proposition

PREM which stands for:
P-Proposition
R-Reason
E-Example
M-Message

What is a proposition?
A proposition is when you state the idea directly or we could say answering the question that would direct to the "point".

After stating your direct answer followed it by adding reasons to support the main idea and give example so that it would be clear for the listeners on what you are trying to say then end it with another proposition or it can be a message like ending it with "sayings or quotations"

Example:
Question: Why do you love anime?
I love anime because it entertains me. The reason why it entertains me because of the fantasy-reality theme it creates that made it seem real for the viewers, for example when the anime your viewing is dramatic the emotion of the viewer would shift into a sad emotion or a happy one, when its action its seems like your part of the fight,although the characters don't look real, its still makes you feel like its real.This is why I love anime for it entertains me when I'm bored.

Well that's it.

One thing I also like about the Club is that they critique each other in a nice way, they don't discriminate but shares what they learned or knew. As the meeting goes on, my attention was caught up by the amazing speeches the members delivered, Amazing not because they were good at delivering their speeches but amazing because they got me interested.Usually,for me, a speech is boring and is not fun to listen to but this one was different because they added it up with humor and good facial expressions. It was a creative way when they used idioms and simile, It really brought an impact to their speeches. This is what persuaded me wanting to join the club because I had learned a lot and I wanted to be a fluent speaker.I want to be like them.

COMPLICATIONS & FAREWELL.

Trying to forget someone that made a huge difference to your life. Don't you think its hard? I don't actually want to let go of that person but if i kept on clinging onto my feelings for him, I'll end up hurting myself. :( Ugh! I hate myself for getting too emotional over minor stuff, I don't know why but i'm really this sensitive. Giving up has always been my option, in solving problems like this one, It's the only way I can save myself from being torn apart or emotionally upset.

This feeling never came up out from Jealousy nor anger... It's a feeling of not being able to befriend someone who's already in front of you, and the fact that everything is too late now.I've lose an opportunity in the same time a close friend, Why is fate so cruel? Why is loving someone so complicated?

I wanted to pretend that everything had never happened but it's impossible because it's already been carved in me and it can never be erased, but it's okay somehow I've enjoyed being a part of his life, although it happened so fast It was fun. Tomorrow is the change, goodbye and thank you for everything. I'll forget about you for sure and this time please don't interfere in my life again.

I hope that the next time we meet again, you'll be true.

GAME ADDICTION.

I Lol'd after my father scolded me when he read this article about a teenage boy who killed his mother and committed suicide because of Game Addiction. If you want to read it click this link

http://www.mysinchew.com/node/48147 . 

This is obviously not true since it lacks information but if it was then CONDOLENCE.

This Guy-Part Three

Moving slowly in a direction towards his face

"Tick!" Our teeth collided

Both of us moved backward

Since we can't help the pain

We both stared at each other

and started to laugh hard

I almost cried because of laughter

I didn't believe that it would turned out that way

Upon seeing his smiling face

I was stunned

The smile he wore 

Deeply made my heart feel at ease

His gentle expression

I haven't seen it for a very long time

and I was glad that

I made him SMILE again :D

This one is short because... I JUST WANT TOO!
next part will be the finale~
which is the longest one lol

Death March "Our Version"

11-15-10

"A date to be remembered"

"Zyra  and Nathalie "

Today was a BLAST! I was having a great time with my Friend Zyra Dawn Villarino,also know as Happy Shalala here in blogger.  Due to the continuous boredom that happened to our day facebooking, chatting, wall posting etc. something came up in our minds &&& BOOM THE WORLD TURN INTO COCOCRUNCH! lol

Actually, after our PE teacher dismissed us early around 5pm [yes, it's too early for us] we were planning on having a "laag tripping". So we planned "this and that" and invited some of our classmates. Unfortunately, no one wanted to go with us :( because they said it was already too LATE. so i'm stick with boring shalala AGAIN hahaha! seriously I've been seeing her face like 10 times a day! Worst thing... we are never separated! NEVER! LOL

Anyway, Our trip started at Gaisano Mall (the old one), I was accompanying her in searching for this high-waisted loose shorts that we are going to wear this Wednesday. [I'm soo excited lol] We bought that short.As we Exit at Gaisano Mall, a "tambay" suddenly pop out in front of us and started to chant random words that totally freaked us out so we fasten our pace to avoid that 'Tambay'.

Since the both of us were sooo hungry, we were planning to eat food at the wet market "halang-halang", when we arrived at the place,a lot of people were staring at us calling us names like "langga,miga,salad oh etc" lol well we didn't mind them since we were soo hungry. WOOH! the food sure was spicy, i got drunk because of too much water I drank lol and both of us were having fun accompanying ourselves with different topics like what is our next trip after we finished eating our food lol

SPICY~!!

Me eating Halang-Halang

OH! i forgot some details! while we were eating, zyra an I saw this handsome guy who has a really long hair, not too long but a hair that really complimented he's looks, and then we came up with this conversation:

Zyra:  "Gwapo, kaau mga lalake noh basta taas kaau cla ug buhok? Chui man gud kaau tan.awon"
Me: "Lgeh! pero depende ra sad na kung mo angay sa ilang nawong oi, gwapo ba nang tindero sa halang2 awa gani"

* Zyra looked at the person I was referring and both of us started laughing XD"

After we finished eating, we went on with our next plan which was to go to Pegalan, so we started hiking, as we were hiking there were a lot of people who were so "papansin" , are we really that HOT? GAHAHAHA. Finally, we arrived at our destination and asked the sastre to shorten our skirt UNFORTUNATELY our uniform was already processed, so she can't do any changes, how sad :( after that bad luck we went to our classmate's house, one of our BFF's [lol] AIANA OBACH! so as we went to their house, we were too hesitant to knock at their door since they were having dinner, because we didn't want to disturb them.We went on a another food trip again! While hiking to SMC, we saw this group of skaters:

Zyra: Hala nat basig naa si "kuan" [arun d bulgar] dra
Me: Lge noh, dali tan.awon nato
Zyra: Cge2
*while crossing the street*
*pause at the center*
Zyra: Aw sure?
Me: Lgeee! LOL
* Car beeping lol*
Me: Tabok na ta oi!
Zyra: aie lge2

So we approached the group of skaters, lol but sad to say, our friend wasn't there and again the skaters started "calling us names". The funny part was I was about to pass at their ramp, where someone was about to skate XD good thing Zyra pulled me out of the way, hahaha I was stunned for a while.  @.@

So went on with our plan "TO EAT" we finally arrived at SMC, we bought "kwek2". I was a little bit full but I still wanted to eat, that's what we call "gluttony" FYI. chit-chatting, still didn't want to go home, we planned on our next trip although it was already 7pm, conversation:

Zyra: Aha naman sad ta nat?
Me: Hmmm...sa kuan na lang adtu ta JFK!
Zyra: cge2, aie wait sa Buzz Nova ta una, mang tripping ta!
Me: Cge! nangita daw ta kunuhay sa atong kaila LOL
Zyra: hahaha cge2
*climbing upstairs, entered buzz nova, people staring at us, DRAMA mode*
Zyra: Aha nakaha toh xa nat no?
Me: Lge, wait tan.awon daw nato didtu
Zyra: Cge2
Me: Murag wala man..
Zyra: adtu na lang ta nat, * whisper* aw wait, murag naa lage akong crush adtu sa ta didtu.
*following Zyra*
Zyra: geh hawa nata dalii
Me: ???
Zyra: ning tan.aw xa nako frieend
Me: lol mao ka. geh JFK na sad ta
Zyra: cge2 basig naa akong kuya
*entered JFK*
Zyra: Naa imong friend, friend?
Me: ay wala man cla oi
*pabugna kadyot/ EXIT*
Zyra: Bati man, mingaw man kaau didtu, so aha man ta sunod?
Me: wow, mo laag japon ta? lol kaw? aha man?
Zyra: Edgers ta!
Me: Cge2!
*hiking from JFK to Edgers*
Zyra: Ayaw na lang friend, ulaw man.
Me: grabe layo na kaau ta, mo back out nako, tan.aw lang ko sa building
Zyra: Cge2
*arrived at EdgeFM*
Zyra: tura o! aiee lock naman d.i, kailangan pa tawagan arun makasulod ta
Me: aw sayang, naa d.i telephone dra...
Zyra: Didtu ra ta sakay sa Zoey lol balik napud HAHA
Me: wookie!
* passed by squarelland*
Zyra: Sulod ta dra friend! daghan aus na mga sanina
Me: cge2

So we entered a boutique besides Squarelland, It's true that there were a lot of beautiful dresses but the salesladies were freaky, they kept on following us wherever we go. It was kinda annoying to our part, so we decided to leave the place. Finally our journey went to a halt! It was already 7:30pm when I arrived at home, good thing my Papa didn't asked why I was late. Since I was full already I didn't eat my dinner and quickly sat in front of the computer. ^_____________^

Today, was a tiring but a fun experience! <3

My Definition of Friendship :3

I love my Friends!
If i were to choose between treasures and them, I would definitely choose them because for me they are the rarest treasures that i can ever have in this WORLD! If it weren't because of my friends i don't know if i can survive or stand alone in this cruel world, Friendship is the hardest thing to describe you see, It can't be describe unless you experienced it, I won't believe that anyone can be happy without a friend, even though how impudent or foul a person is, it is inevitable for a person not to search for a friend to hang out with.

As for me I have few TRUE FRIENDS, and I'm glad that I've met them, without them in my life i think everyday would be a boring day for me. I've been given a lot of trials when it comes to strengthening my relationships with my friends and I'm glad I've encountered all of it! ^_____^

There was this incident when I have to choose between *this person* and my friends, It was a really hard decision for me.At that moment, I love this specific person but in the same time I also love my friends, so i can't really choose. This was the incident that made me realize how true and important my friends are, Imagine yourself ignoring your friends for the sake of the person you love, I've done that and yes I was stupid but I was happy. WHY? the fact that I've been ignoring my friends also made me realize how important they are to me.

Mga Adiks- The people that I've treasured the most, I haven't told you things that I wanted you to know, now this is it, I WANT TO THANK YOU GUYS for...

1. Not giving up on me although I kept on ignoring you guys at school when I'm with the you know the person..
2. Inviting me to outings knowing the fact that my answer would always be "NO."
3. Still supporting me when you guys don't even like the person lol
4. Being true to me when you felt like I'm no longer the Nathalie you've met before
5. Knowing that i'm the one who's wrong but still on my side
6. The jokes when I'm sad
7. The insults that made me laugh
8. Trying to give me advices that's impossible to do but made me feel better
9. The parties when I'm brokenhearted
10. The warmth of your smiles that made my heart feel at ease when I'm with you

&&& SO MANY MORE THINGS TO THANK YOU! ^________^
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This Guy-Part Two

“Okay, since I’m bored I've decided to post the second part of this P/S thingy lol

Other reasons, some people are requesting for me to post it, so if you’re reading this,

 you know who you are. Sad to say, it won't end in this part lol”

During a Soiree

He approached me

And asked me to dance with him

At first I don't want to

But I change my mind and grasp his hand

We dance that night and it was romantic

I am heartless, but I know my emotions

I know that the guy I'm with is the guy I love...

While we were dancing

He asked me something

"Do you trust me?"

I responded "Yes, I do."

He grasps my chin

And slowly moved towards my face

He kept maintaining eye contact with me

As if he was trying to tempt me with his gaze

Upon sensing his gaze

Which was so intense that

It could melt something

I got excited and my cheeks started to turn red

I tried to escape from his eyes

But I could not resist

As if I was trapped in his gaze

I hesitated before opening my mouth in a tempting manner

I suddenly remembered the first thing he asked me

And remembered what I told him

So I gain a lot of confidence

And closed my eyes...

My Blogging Addiction

This is bad...
THIS IS THE END OF THE WORD WORLD! (d?)

I think this is my third blog post for this day, Is that bad? lol My blogging addiction just triggered, Anyway since I've done this now i just want to share something. While I was "googling" i stumbled on someone's blog and read some of her blog post i saw this some sort of link entitled "Utada-Prisoner of Love" since it's title was intriguing i clicked it and the link transferred me to youtube, surprisingly it was an AWESOME SONG! since the song was awesome i'd knew that the other ones would be great too, so i kept listening to some of her videos and just realized that i got addicted to it and started to search some personal information about her. Guess what? Her parents were Asian(Japanese) and she was born on New York City no wonder she's fluent in English! I idolize her so much not because she has an awesome voice but the song she sang relates to my life, my love life specifically. She's a rare singer and has a rare talent. I so want to meet her or to be like her, unfortunately I don't have that so called "beautiful voice" *cough cough*

Currently listening to: Utada Hikaru-Movin on Without You

You guys should try listening to her songs and i know that you would love it fer sure! :D

She's Pretty too!

<3

This Guy-Part One

When I first met this guy

He looked at me and smiled

His angelic smile

Made me blushed every time

I told my friends about this guy

That I have a crush on him

But they disagree

And said we are not meant to be

I tried hiding my true feelings

For this guy

School days ended, summer passed away

My feelings for him soon faded and vanished

Back to school

I saw him again

He made my heart beat so fast

He looked at me and smiled like before

I was confused

I thought I already forgot about him

I tried hating him

And asked my friends for help

Every time we met at the hallway

My friends would grab me

And escape far from him

I then saw this sad mark on his face

I was anxious

That he might felt bad

For what I have done

One day…

[Part Two will be posted when i felt like it LOL]

Confused? then ask.

This Guy Preview? lol

Okay, first thing first.

I'm not a novelist, a writer, a composer or an ENGLISH teacher. I might have some grammatical errors so I just want to point this one out, if you are going to critique please don't be too harsh okay? :)

Now let's start, you might be asking "Why is this girl having a This Guy preview thingy, what's this all about?" 

Okay, This Guy is some sort of a free verse poetry of mine or a song? Well  I don't really know what specifically it is but I can say that it is based on my story well NOT ALL OF IT, I repeat not everything that I have written in this poetry like song is true, especially the kissing part lol I just added it up, to uhhh let's say to be more ROMANTIC and FUNNY? HAHAHAHA well it's funny because… well you will know when you’re going to read it. Anyway, the only reality in the poetry slash song I’m not sure thingy is the feelings that I have conveyed when I met "THIS GUY". This was an experience that happened in the past not currently but the PAST okay? 

PAST- of earlier time: having existed, occurred, been done, or been gained in a previous time

It's also not based on a specific guy but to all the guys that have touched and completely destroyed my life lol? That might be too harsh but well I can say yea. I've written this P/S like thingy when I was still a high school student, you might notice that the first part of the P/S thingy (since it has like 5 parts?), was happy and when the story goes on you’ll know… I don’t want to spoil.

So, I hope you guys will enjoy reading it; I’ll post the first part when I’m done with this one.

So do you want me to end now?

Oh wait, please don’t forget to follow me here okay? &&& if you love the P/S thingy, you can spread it with a proper credit (feelers lol) but if we are friends on facebook please don’t spread or else I’ll kill you seriously…

END.

Oh let's do the Caramel Dansen!

Unnamed Novel

"I love you,I love you more", such delightful words that makes your heart feel ecstasy, especially when you hear those words coming from your loved one...A life without her is meaningless;useless..Its like living in a world with no reason why you exist. But what would happen if you can no longer hear those words from the person you love?What if the person that makes you feel alive is now a mere corpse?If you asked me, I would die.

The story of my life started when i met this angelic girl...the reason why i continue existing...The love of my life.

      One rainy afternoon,after a devastating tragedy;I was at the cemetery...drenched under the ceaseless rain,steady and still;but i didn't care...All i wanted is to spend time with my parents grave...gazing longingly at their tomb stones;I was shocked by their death.Having a mix emotion deep inside me,An unwanted feeling...A feeling of pain and deep sorrow,loneliness,despair,agony...My heart felt it was torn apart, As if someone was stabbing me...I can't bear the sadness..
     Suddenly, A piece of white cloth appeared in front of my eyes,A lady handing me over a handkerchief looked at me and said "Let your emotions out,The only thing you can do for the dead is to remember their existence and cry for them,So please cry..." After hearing those words, my heart felt heavy and tears starts running down,Remembering those precious moments with my parents.I weep.The mysterious girl hugged me and made me feel at ease.I kept on crying and crying until the rain stopped;After releasing all those sad emotions...I felt tired and lost consciousness.

I entitled it Unnamed because I actually don't have the perfect title for this novel yet, I'll name it after, if i manage to finish this novel. I'm still searching for inspiration if I'm going to end this novel in a happy or a sad way. What do you guys want?