Heart Rate.

How many lies must I hide?
How many secrets kept inside?
I want to tell them all to you
But I can't risk losing your precious touch

To say, 'Please just don't leave me here'
Selfish pleadings of my fear
Only with you I feel at home
There's nowhere else my mind can be truly at peace

Like waves, these feelings flow and rise, so tender
Sharing this bliss with you is all I want, but...
Can you feel it? I wonder, so silently I pray, so quiet--
I long to understand meanings beyond us
Moments you can't pass, just once in a lifetime
Just grant me this moment and listen to the pulse of my life

My heart beats just for you, every breath that I take
I'm aware of your presence, our lives are surely joined as one
But these things I'm too afraid to admit; I fear losing you
But I just want you to know, I'll love you for eternity

To feel your hand holding mine
To feel your lips against mine
To know our love transcends time
So many things that make this small life glow warm

My tears caressed by your love
Butterfly kisses float away
Everything I've lost and now found
I can find this all given in your warm embrace

Moments so precious, I don't want to let go
Reliving tales of the past in our gazes
I'll never let you go, through thick and thin this I shall promise, I promise
So hold onto my hand, let's stay together
I'm not quite sure what the meaning of fate is
Despite it all this happiness is surely unchanging

With this heartbeat in my chest, I only want to keep you safe
That is my reason to live, and I need nothing else
This same heart repeats, beating a steady melody
And that's when I recognize, we've found each other once again

Until one day when I fall, I've come to wonder to myself
If I keep murmuring 'love,' how many will I come to say?
Just for you being here, I can't be quite thankful enough
And for you being alive, I will cry my tears of thanks

My heart beats just for you, every breath that I take
I'm aware of your presence, our lives are surely joined as one
But these things I'm too afraid to admit; I fear losing you
But I just want you to know, I'll love you for eternity

Realization.

I like to watch humans when they are at its limit.

It's when they would realize their biggest mistakes, Right now I've been seeing the most of it lately. Felt like I knew the whole story from both sides that I'm so confused on what to do that I chose to do nothing but listen.

My Friends.

Sometimes they act childish, loves to bully me around and always makes me laugh, they do get on my nerves but I just don't have the guts to stay mad at them. They are family to me and I just can't live without them, and it already pains a lot seeing them fighting right now with this hatred in their hearts.

What I learned from this fight is that human do change, there are times when they would completely forget the good memories and be devoured by their hatred, times where they would talk bad things behind your back and spill all the deepest darkest secrets which was promised not to do so [betrayal] , times when no one would lower their pride because trusting each other is no longer present and times when you have to choose which friends you should go with and be completely separated....

BUT

This would also result into a realization of the importance of our friendship although it would take a while for some to realize but as long as the meaning of this realization is still their then there is nothing to be afraid of, although for me it would be nostalgic but i have to cling on myself in believing that this would still work and this is for the BEST.

I won't let this happen.

I can't accept the fact that you believe in him without consulting us first T_T you don't know the whole story, in fact he is one of those people who thinks you're like that and turning your back as if we are just nothing to you hurts a lot more than you do. Why can't you just think it over rather than giving up? I understand how hard this situation is for you but if you can't accept a very minor thing about you, do you think you can build a stronger bond in a relationship? NO. Friends are there to tell you what your flaws are because we don't want to look fake in front of you, if your wondering why we haven't told you anything it's because we need the right time to do so, it's not that easy you know? we can't just tell you frankly because it would be a huge risk to lose you, but i guess its already too late for us after that fucking son of a bitch blabber it all. So please, give us a chance to explain everything don't hide or run not knowing the real REASON. If you think no one cared, that's not true because we really do care about you, you're one of our cute, noisy, happy-go-lucky friend and without you this friendship won't be like it is used to be.

and to the guy who spilled it all I KNOW WHAT YOU DID THERE,  your real purpose is so fucking obvious trying to win her heart again huh? FUCK YOUUU! >< after all those bullshit you said to them behind her back, you still have the guts to ruin our friendship? This i'll tell you NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO, I'LL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO MAKE OUR BOND STRONGER AND NO CAN EVER BREAK IT, NO ONE! This is too much to let go so easily *sigh*

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 *fucking blog's music box makes me go teary eyes~ nyuu ._.*